Lord in Heaven, I’m sensing your call to take my steps into a new level of relationship with you. It’s more than a desire in my heart. It’s more than a thought or a notion. It’s a repetitive prompting that you have more for me and a constant reminder that I need it.
I’ve washed over it quite often. I’ve filled my life with entertainment, tasks, busywork, meetings, and even family responsibilities because of course those things need to be done, but then when I’m alone in the quiet again, and I allow my soul to quiet down, I sense the lack.
My lack is not a lack of knowledge. Although I know there is much still I have to learn, this next level is one you have already taught me about.
My lack is not a lack of desire. I’ve been longing to go to this next level with you for a long time without actually getting there.
Now, I’m convinced that my lack is not a lack of your willingness to take me to the next level. I’m certain that you have something for me.
My lack is mostly a lack of faith—will I step up onto this new level or not?
What’s holding me back? Fear mostly. What if I step up, and you aren’t there? What if I step up and people I love don’t understand? What if I step up, but I fall on my face because I’m not actually ready?
Lord, I want greater depth with you. Lead me deeply into the waters of who you are. Open my heart to see with the eyes of faith where you are moving, and prepare me for the step to come.